As of late, I have been talking about the past living in Wisconsin, and sharing my stories with friends. As I drive around, I realize things will never be the same. Why?.. I can't go back to where I came from, time wise, or even the same house. Professional's call this "living in the past" and not living in the moment. Some times I wish I was home again with family and friends. .. then for a moment I sit and think.. Nothing would really be different other then I could visit my mother quicker.
I can do everything I did in my past now and then some. The fact that reliving things in my mind of the past makes me happy.. shows I have know regrets, and have learned from my past as well.
I am in the midst of setting up my art room.. (AGAIN).. shhsh!
I will try to think of permanence as that has not been in my vocabulary in quite a while.
I also think since my husband retired 14 yrs. ago.. like has changed dramatically for me. Prior to that, I have had my independence, my own job, friends, students.. and made my own money.
I guess this sums up the large amount of reflecting on my life as well!
I do so enjoy the warmth of where I live, flowers daily, watching our trees and every plant we planted grow before our eyes. I do love the cool nights and feeling of the ocean in the air.
One thing I will miss is the preparation for Fall .. baking pies, shopping at the local farmers markets.. (we do have them here) but .. just something different. Not having the four seasons makes me sad. Missing my son/ wife and our grandchildren too. So with all that.. I guess you can understand.. why I am "reflecting".. I know.. I need to "Bloom where Planted"!!